Letting Go!

I have been praying and deciding what to do with somethings in my life that I can't control and that doesn't feel my heart with peace and joy.

 I like to be in control of things in my life but sometimes we have to let go of the control and know that our Heavenly Father and Savior can control it for awhile. 

Have the faith that he knows what is best for us and giving him the control can free us from the burden of such negative and hurtful things. 

Or just giving him control that everything will work out. 

I have been seeing the phrase LET GO! all around me. 

Ha I get it! 

I get that I need to let go so that is what I am trying is to just let go, let go of everything I can't control and have the faith that it will all work out.

Hope you all remember to let go of the crap, let go of the things that aren't making you be the person you want to be. 

Let go of the pride, let go of the negative that surrounds you!

Hope you all enjoy this new painting! I love how the neon gives it such a pop of color!

I sold this to a dear friend and I am so glad it went to a good home because I love this painting so much!!

Trust your Heart!

This last few weeks has been really emotional.

 I sent my oldest on an LDS mission. 

I am so happy that he decided to serve the lord but yet my heart hurts that he is gone and I wont see him for two years. 

I know as a mother I have done everything I could to prepare him for this but still there are those times where I feel like I could have done more and I didn't teach him enough. 

I know this is where I want him to be but it is still hard. 

I have also been trying to heal my heart and let me tell you it is the hardest thing I have ever done. There are those people that don't want that to happen and Satan is right there reminding me of all of it. Satan does not want me to grow and make my life better. I am stronger than him and I have my Heavenly Father is in my corner fighting for me! I know that there is a better place on the other side if I just keep fighting for the good! If I can trust my heart and not  hear all the bad that people tell me I know I am better than their words. 

This is a new painting that was inspired by a painting I saw online by Marion Smith. Hope you like it! 

Hope all of you fighting for yourself's! You will remember to trust your Heart!

This painting is for sale it measures 12x24 and is a thick canvas.

Art Journaling

Here are a few art journal pages

 The face I used acrylic paint, for the drips I used red ink and turned my page up so the ink could drip down the page.

 Kinda looks like her eye is bleeding.

This is a journal page that I did in the True Free Spirit class put on by Mindy. 

Kinda looks like Shakespeare!

This Journal page I was feeling like I need to remind myself that I am beautiful and that I am loved. I used acrylic paints, stamps, washi tape, ink sprays, 

 I drew this girl and cut her out and glued her in my journal I then used acrylic paints on her face and hair. 

The back ground is stencils, spray inks, and acrylic.

 The next two journal pages I glued on an old dress patters and layered spray inks, and acrylic paint, and stencils.

Hope you enjoyed what I have been doing in my art journal! 

Next time I will be doing a video on showing you all the steps to create a journal page. 

Stay tuned for that!

Also I will be teaching my mixed media canvas soon. 

Stay tune for locations for that class!!

Art Journaling

I ordered the Dylusion creative journal and i am so giddy about it! 

 It will forever be my new art journal! 

The pages can really take a lot of abuse!! 

Look how cool the inside is!

This is the outside of the journal I created! Layers and Layers of scrapbook paper, washi tape, paint, and stamps.

Here is a link to take a look at!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7ff-6mXzWU

Gotta Get Up And Try!

Do you ever feel like nothing you do is good enough? 

How the crap you are suppose to keep up with everything you see and hear on line or talking with people? 

 All I know is I can barely keep my house clean and exercise. 

Forget about eaten good! I am worn out with trying to keep up !

I see all these amazing women around me and holy cow they are achieving and creating so many wonderful things for their home, kids, families, and themselves, and I am barely treading water!

So here is the ugly truth I suffer from a debilitating disease.

 No one likes to talk about it but it is real and I am pretty sure I am not alone!  

When you are in a deep dark hole it sure feels like we are alone.

 Yes I am talking about depression! 

On the outside we look fine and we tell people we are fine but we are not we are drowning and can't seem to find the surface. 

This winter had been really bad for me! 

Some days I can barley make it through the day!

 It is really hard to explain depression to someone that doesn't suffer from it. 

 It feels like you are hopeless that nothing you do matters. 

Just feels like a deep dark hole!

 I know Satan wants me to feel hopeless, lost, and alone. 

That I am not good enough, that I am not a good enough wife, mother, sister, friend, daughter. 

I know that it is him putting these thoughts into my head.  

But I also know that depression is real!

 I have been able to be off meds only if I exercise everyday.  

My art helps me get out of those dark places! 

I know that I am not alone and my Heavenly Father loves me and I know that he expects me to just try.  I don't have to be perfect, I just need to try! 

I can only be me and live the life he has given me use the talents he has given me! 

I don't need to compare myself to those around me because I am not them. 

I AM ME!

I just hope if anyone is out there reading this and feels so hopeless and you are lost in that deep dark hole that you know that I am here to listen and know that you are not alone!

 I have been there several times and know how you are feeling. 

Please know that you are loved and tomorrow is a new day!

I created this mixed media painting to remind myself to

GET UP AND TRY!!

Cheerio!

I painted The Britsh Flag (The Union Jack) onto a huge Canvas.  

My son is going to Manchester England on an LDS Mission.

 I am going to us it for a place where I can glue down post stamps, letters and cool memorabilia he sends home. 

 After he gets home I will give it to him for his own. 

 I am also creating one  from my trip to Europe.  I will post that one when I am done it is a little different I wont be painting a flag on that one.  

Finding My Purpose

Painting I did in Mindy Lacefield's True Free Spirit Class.

In life our purpose changes in what stage of life we are in.  

I was married and had a baby at a young age.

 At that time in life my purpose was to go to collage and raise a baby. 

 I went to hair school and am very grateful I went it allowed me to make a little money and stay at home and be a mom, it also helped me to save money on cutting my own families hair. 

I am now 36 and my kids are all in school and I have one leaving on a mission soon. 

(can't believe it, he is going to Manchester England).

My purpose has changed. 

I am still a stay at home mom and am so grateful I am able to do this so I can be home when my kids get home and able to run them around to their activities.  

So this has brought me to ask

 "What is my purpose"?  

Who am I now that I am home all day with nothing to do. 

 I cut hair but it is not my passion.

 I have always known that I love paint and love to create. 

 I started taking an art class and I know for a fact this is my passion!  

I am good and I love it!  

I am so grateful to have found my purpose.  

It is to paint!! 

I hope to take my painting to a new level and I am learning as fast as I can. 

I hope that you all find your purpose in life and remember that our purpose change and as you have young kids that is okay for you to have them be your purpose. 

 It is okay to "Just Be A Mom"!

I am so grateful that I have found my purpose and that it feeds my soul!